(以下內容涉及電影「藍莓之夜」的劇情,敬請留意。)
月初看了王家衛的「藍莓之夜」,想不到要拖到月尾才有時間和靈感寫。
這大半個月以來,斷斷續續看了一些關於這齣電影的評論和報導,要數印象最深刻的,該是清心的〈用最長的時間橫過這條馬路〉。清心寫道,標題那句話的吊詭之處,在於女主角的「出走」根本就不是「出走」,她「出走」的「目的地」就是為了「回來」。
每個人都有自己心之所繫、情之所鍾的人和事,除非經歷重大事故,否則那顆鍾愛之心,甚少會有翻天覆地的轉變。只是,人都有三心兩意的毛病,明明已找到畢生至愛(目的地),卻還會想:前面會否有更好的人和事在等著自己呢?於是便會想到「出走」。沒多少人會想到,這一走,很可能會與一生中最美好的人和事訣別。
話雖如此,女主角的出走,卻又稱得上是謹慎的表現。才不過見了幾次面的男人,怎能如此輕率便付托終生?一定要想清想楚,還要到外面的世界看個夠,才回來做此生最重要的決定。很多時,我們都需要借助別人的反照,才能看清楚自己的心。
說起來,現在的栗子妹跟劇中的女主角,境況有點相像,大家都努力在人生旅途上尋找自我。因為我相信,要愛人,先要愛自己。一日找不到自己那顆失落了的心,我一日也不敢去愛人。
走筆至此,忽然想起了過氣心上人。雖然對他已沒有非份之想(好像從沒有過~),但一顆心還是不由自主地繫在他身上,時常擔心他會否太累(他太容易生病了),會否為那份得不到的愛而神傷。都不明白為何到現在,我還是那麼的喜歡他......
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點歌時間:John Legend - Someday
As days go by
and fade to nights
I still question
why you left
I wonder how
it didn't work out
but now you're gone
and memories all I have for now
but no it's not over
we'll get older we'll get over
we'll live to see the day that I hope for
come back to me
I still believe that
we'll get it right again
we'll come back to life again
we won't say another goodbye again
you'll live forever with me
Someday, someday
we'll be together
someday, someday
we'll be together
I heard someday
might be today
mysteries of destinies they
are somehow
and are someway
for all we know
they come tomorrow
for today
my eyes are open
my arms are raised for your embrace
my hands are here to mend what is broken
to feel again to walk on the face
I believe there is more to life
oh I love you much more than life itself
I believe I can change your mind
revive what is dying inside
And someday, someday
we'll be together
someday, someday
we'll be together
someday, someday
we'll be together
we'll be together
we'll be together
someday
(Source: http://webnews.giga.net.tw/article//tw.bbs.literal.lyrics/57666)